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| 05:24pm 20/01/2009 |
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What a long strange trip its been |
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| 06:54pm 22/08/2008 |
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Any one recognize where this pic was taken ?
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| Coil |
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| 10:06pm 20/07/2008 |
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Well it taken me almost ten years but I know have the entire coil discography on mp3 with all the album covers and info files.
RIP
John Balance |
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| 12:01pm 05/04/2008 |
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I have kept these pictures in my big book for five years now. They are getting old so I thought I should scan them. I was very sick in then and did not even know it. I have many more that demonstrate just how close to death I was how ever these are the prime examples that I have and I keep them around as a reminder.
As well as being reminders of a grim past they have served me as a beautiful lesson in impermanence. All things change fall away and die or end. All phases of life, living and experience all have a beginning an apex and an end. These cycles of existence are ever changing and unavoidable. I have found for me the joy in realizing this fact has freed me from the suffering that comes with these facts. As long as I avoid the clinging to the good and the aversion of the bad and just experience what is in the here and now all things are beautiful.
The miracle of mindfulness has truly been the greatest gift ever allowed for me today
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| GRATEFUL!!!!!!! |
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| 05:37pm 18/01/2008 |
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Five years ago today I remember walking into a meeting of alcoholics anonymous with a friend he had to go for his work (they had caught him drinking) and did not want to go alone so beings as I had gone to meetings in the past I went with him. It is funny how life works out I got it that night and he did not. So much has happened in the last five years I can not even begin to fathom the huge changes since that shaky night in a shabby meeting room in riverside ca.
In the last five years I have gone back to school got a great job found my daughter fought her mother for visitation moved to Washington so That I can be a father for said daughter. Found a spiritual path of insight and awareness that works for me, Made a slew of real friends and a few that are closer then my own family. I never knew how to be a friend until I got sober. I have Helped and continue to help the newcomers to the rooms. Today I get to go and bring meetings into jails and institutions. I get to be present for life and that has been such a wonderful gift.
Life just keeps getting better the more I stick around and show up for it. It is amazing how much things have changed my thinking, my reactions, my concept of self and I.
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| A new year a new life |
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| 02:36pm 24/12/2007 |
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"I take refuge in the Buddha"
I commit myself to being mindful, to being conscious in every aspect of my life. I wont shut out parts of myself: when I am cheering my favorite team I will try to feel the enthusiasm in my body; when I am fighting my way through traffic, I will try to open my heart to other drivers and to my own suffering in this moment; when I am craving an escape, a drink, a drug, another life, I will try to be gentle but firm with myself, to show compassion for my own desire and resolve to stay with my sobriety. And, Finally, I will practice meditation daily and find ways to strengthen my practice through retreats, study, and self examination.
”I take refuge in the dharma”
I commit myself to looking for the truth of the way things are and fulfilling those insights, to living by the principals I have come to understand; impermanence, Karma, suffering that all things are with out an independent self. I can’t hang on to anything, because it is impermanent; I will try to practice letting go. I am responsible for my own Karma; I will practice skillful living in words and action. I recognize that life is inherently difficult; I will try to help others who suffer and be gentle with my own pain.
My sense of self is a delusion; I will try to act less self-centered and find ways to serve others.
“I take refuge in the sangha.”
I commit myself to compassion, loving-kindness, generosity, and a moral life; I commit myself to supporting and being supported by the community of the spirit. I will regularly attend gatherings to fulfill this commitment. I will work toward the development of a greater and more diverse community. I will remember to be grateful to all that make this life and this practice possible, to the bounty of nature, the bounty of tradition, and the bounty of my own life. |
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| 08:05pm 15/10/2007 |
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You don't die because you where never born. You just forgot who you are . |
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| 05:59pm 12/09/2007 |
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To all the fuck tards at ABC NEWS I hope you all die in a fiery car crash you dumb motherfuckers |
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| 12:57pm 02/09/2007 |
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Just a bad idea forget I ever posted it |
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